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While I am trying not to slip into that negative space (too much) of feeling bad that I am not able to ski, I am getting answers and taking control of the situation, which always makes you feel better. It is unfortunate that I am getting to experience Jackson Hole in this way, but it is also good to be getting treatment in a place where there are so many athletes and so many health professionals who not only are knowledgeable about skiers/climbers, but understand the importance of these activities to us, and also trust our knowledge of our own bodies and information we have to give them.
I went to the boot-fitter at the resort base as scheduled. I already knew that the Peroneus longus was the muscle that was hurting and I have a history of right foot instability and very high arches; but I was interested to see what the boot-fitter would see. This is what he found:
Given the above, there were not a ton of drastic options. But after discussion, we decided the best we could do was to:
Clearly these are things that are not going to fix the acute issue. But I hope, and think, it will help going forward in the longer term.
The next stop was the physiotherapist. I really liked her because she said, Yeah, you know exactly what is going on. What I learned from her was:
I was not aware of my super-human right foot, but I do know #1 stems from all the climbing I do with it and how I force and contort it into all sorts of strange positions. My right foot is also doing a ton of work stabilizing my right leg when I am skiing, climbing etc.. I know I ask a lot out of it and push it, but I did not know these would be the consequences. A case of one sport (climbing) causing problems in another sport (skiing). My indoor and sport-climbing shoe is also quite downturned and aggressive, farther exacerbating/causing these arch weakness issues.
I had some soft-tissue work done, and also ultra-sound to break up any possible starts to tendonitis. I am also starting my prescribed strengthening exercises, doing my hot-cold contrast therapy, and things to get the inflammation down. We also agreed that it was still worthwhile going to the orthopedic specialist on Friday to get the cortisone shot to reduce the inflammation. Her answer would have been different if I lived here, but given my situation and goals, getting a kick-start seemed like a good idea. We will have a better idea on Friday whether I can ski on the remainder of this trip.
This adaptive business is very tiring some times and I have ambivalent feelings about the term and how it can be sometimes used euphemistically. Yes, we are adapting to our physical limitations, but these adaptations are not normal. They create problems in other sports, and other areas in our lives. So to sugar-coat this term, I think, is slightly disingenuous. Even as I write this, I feel slightly ungrateful, because there are many assets that are handed to us just by luck of the draw: family, socio-economic circumstances we are born into, a particular ethnic group, the place(s) we grow up, physical ability. Yet this strikes a particular nerve because, for the most part, most people are born with functioning, “normal” human bodies. Questioning what is fair and not fair about such things is futile, mostly (social justice issues are a different matter), but it is hard not to some times. I guess we just keep pushing on and make the most of what we have.
I have the okay to some easy snow-shoeing so I am keeping my fingers crossed roads will be clear for me to drive to Grand Teton National Park tomorrow to clear the mind and body a bit.
I packed my Metolius rock rings, having never used them before, but thinking they would be a good thing to have while I am otherwise not doing any climbing during my stay in Hong Kong. Part of my walk this morning involved scouting out places where I could hang these rock rings. It was not that easy. Eventually, I settled on Braemar Hill Playground (Braemar Hill is the hill behind our home, and where my primary school is located).
The setup is far from ideal, but it had to do for this morning.
It would be better if I could find something where the rings can hang more freely and without vertical bars on either side of them so that my elbows can move out.
My finger and upper-body strength are atrociously weak right now. I started off with the simple 10 minute workout Metolius recommends; and even that was a bit of a struggle with the two-finger holds. I hope I won’t be totally useless for ice this season.
I am going to do more scouting today to find a better setup.
Yes, a natural combination, no?
Since coming back from the City of Rocks, I have been struggling with some pretty severe gastrointestinal issues. It can, understandably, be a bit of an embarrassing topic but it has been severely negatively impacting my life the last while. I have been displaying all the symptoms of severe Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS); extremely painful bloating and distention, messed up bowels, etc. The question is why? As most of you know, one of the biggest effects of my spinal cord injury was on my GI tract. Amongst other things, the motility of my intestines is much slower than a normal persons. My sluggish intestines can and have caused some severe problems, including my hospital stay right before I flew out to Salt Lake City.
Like, Salt Lake City, I was not sure if I would be able to follow through with a last minute invitation to climb in Red Rocks, just outside Las Vegas. I have not been to Red Rocks in close to 9 years; before my accident. Things were touch and go but I decided to take a chance and go and cross my fingers that my dysfunctional gut will not give me problems for the short four day trip. I return the day before Thanksgiving, will cook and clean a little, before heading to Northern Vermont (like, Canadian border Vermont) for Thanksgiving and perhaps the first ski day of the season! It will be dinky and there will probably be only a few runs open but what the heck.
I have an appointment with a gastroenterologist soon after that, so hopefully we can identify the issue(s) and possible solutions. In the mean time, I am embarking on a low FODMAPs diet in the hope it might offer some relief. It definitely makes meals and eating out a lot less fun, but it is temporary.
It seems like every one and their mother is in Red Rocks right now, and who can blame them. Unfortunately my stay is a short one and I need to balance my objectives with my partner’s and the group. The approaches in RR tend to be very long however, and that will limit the routes I can do. I would have loved to get on Levitation or Original Route, but with 3 hours approaches for people with two working legs, with significant elevation change, it is pretty much a no-go. As I was looking through routes, I had a hard time not feeling limited. My friend asked how I could feel that way when I was looking at 5.11+ routes. I appreciate his perspective, but still, evidence that I still find it challenging to not feel a sense of loss. I am looking forward to the sun and warmer weather though!
My first thought when I saw this picture from tonight’s belated birthday dinner…
We got back to Boston last Friday, and even the morning of our departure, I was terribly down. I find myself torn between wanting to be in the mountains/by the ocean, but also wanting the culture and amenities of a proper city. Boston has a pretty good Western food dining scene, but I would not call it a city. I miss the ethnic diversity of major cities, the different neighbourhoods, a proper public transportation system. I am struggling to map out next steps, because I am not sure what the concrete end goal is. Do I try and pursue skiing and climbing as a full-time endeavor, while trying to make a difference in the world and in the lives of others? To do these things simply for fun is not enough. Or do I choose to have these be hobbies, while trying to find meaning and purpose in a career? How do I achieve either of these given constraints – financial, personal, physical etc.?
In the mean time, I am posting some of my favourite photos from my trip. Paris is just a hop-skip away so I know I can always go back. Yet, right now, it seems so so far away.
By total chance, I stumbled into a total gem of a shop: the Librairie des Alpes in the 6th arr. along the Seine. I highly recommend this book store if you are in Paris and at all interested in alpine climbing/mountaineering and the history of it. I got talking with the store owner and expressed my interest in old manuals for climbing, skiing, mountaineering.
These are not the oldest texts I own, but they are still pretty damn cool. This is the 1934 publication of the Alpinism manual from the French Climbing and Mountaineering Federation. The two volumes together are remarkably comprehensive. The first volume covers the “Science” of alpinism e.g. meteorology, geology, snow science and much more. The second volume covers techniques and skills for alpine travel and climbing. It even had a diagram on how to do a hand-jam. Who said the French don’t climb cracks?
When I am in Boston, my back pain and leg neuropathy can get quite intolerable from work, driving, and the generally sedentary lifestyle outside of being in a gym/weekends. However, I found my pain levels were much lower when I was in Paris, due to all the walking/standing and not sitting at a desk. This is a clear job requirement, but it is tricky because I need to move/can’t sit (or stand) for extended periods of time, but I also can’t take on a job that revolves around manual labour.
All the walking in Paris meant that I could eat like this every morning. The croissants and baguettes at Blé Sucré are honestly the best I have ever had, and there other pastries are fantastic too (the madeleines are considered some of the best in Paris).
While I never tired of going to this bakery for breakfast every morning, I did tire of the museums and old architecture of Paris. Yes, that sounds a bit awful, but I feel like my tolerance/interest in these things is quite low. For our last day, I did not want to see yet another monument, building, etc. So we went to Belleville. This neighbourhood was a big surprise for me, in that I was not expecting to enjoy it so much. Quite a few things there reminded me of Hong Kong, and not just because there are lots of Asian people there: the slightly hillier residential areas, with lots of stairs, the density of restaurants (lots of Thai, Vietnamese, Chinese, Lebanese restaurants)…
I really enjoyed the Parc des Buttes Chaumont in Belleville because the paths, foliage, people using it reminded me a lot of the parks in Hong Kong.
And, of course, we got up close to the Eiffel Tower. My friend Yves lives very close by to the Eiffel Tower, and picked a wonderful spot for dinner with a great view of it.
As a total aside…we were riding the Paris Metro and opposite from us, an African man dressed in baggy jeans, a flat brimmed hat, was carrying an instrument I had never seen before. He saw my quizzical look and said in English, It is a Kora. He proceeded to pluck a few strings casually. Beautifully. Then launched into a song in an African language. I have no idea what the origins are of that song, but the spontaneous act of playing this instrument and singing while riding a train, making the people around him smile…this man who would not look out of place on a basketball court in an inner-city neighbourhood…brought me to tears.
We found ourselves unexpectedly in tourist mode yesterday, just because we could piece together a number of things along the way to our final stop, dinner.
A large part of me is just not all that interested in seeing the usual tourist sites. It is not the lines and crowds (those suck too). It is worse; I just do not always grasp the significance of a lot of these sites. This is something that worries me quite a bit because I think, wow Wendy, if visiting these places/sites does not make you happy, what will? The explanation is pretty obvious though: a) I tend to be drawn to natural wonders and b) I have experienced so many beautiful/majestic/awesome places and things that I am somewhat jaded to places/things that many people would consider beautiful/majestic/awesome. And that sucks right? I will say though, there are many non-conventional experiences that I enjoy and value.
Is there a difference between being unimpressed (which I often am) and being unappreciative/not realise how lucky you are (which I am often not, but sometimes do forget)? I think so.
With that being said, we found ourselves unexpectedly in tourist mode yesterday. It just so happened we could piece a number of things between our first stop and our final stop (dinner).
We started off at the Marche aux Puces (so literally, a flea market). I realize I do not have as fine an appreciation of some antiques, furniture etc. , but even with this in mind, I was soon bored. The perimeter was just like an oversized Stanley Market, and the interior did not appear to be a place to find deals. The one exception was a shop owner showing us really cool stone implements, the oldest being 24,500 years old. And these.
We found out a lot of the following sites are along the number 1 (yellow) metro line, aka the Tourist line, so why not?
Sacre Coeur Basilica is rather unsightly. It has a somewhat interesting history.
Today was considerably more relaxed. For once, we did not get a croissant or other pastry from Blé Sucré (baguette, cannele and madeleines don’t count) and had breakfast closer to the March d’Aligre. We went to the market to shop for a light Sunday night and Monday night dinners (we have been frequenting this fromagerie) because we have the lunch tasting menu at Arpege in between! I honestly have no idea how I will fit 12+ courses in me.
Scott had to have his falafel sandwich at L’As du Fallafe, so off we went.
Scott’s tolerance for lines is about as bad as mine, so the fact that he would wait in this line says something about the fallafel.
It was good. Very good.
Our next stop at the Musée des Arts et Métiers isn’t really touristy at all, but it felt like it as our feet grew more tired.
It was worth it though. I mean, it’s not every day you get to see this.
After the disappointment of just how poorly I had done in Qualifiers (future post on this), Scott proposed walking along Canal Saint Martin. With the lovely weather, I thought this was a very good idea. We decided to start our walk out of the metro station Juares (look along orange line 5 on the right bank side), and were immediately struck by all these tents right outside the station and all along the canal. These tents went on a fair distance and looked like fairly long-term residences for what seemed to entirely Middle Eastern people. My first thought was, are these refugees?
It turns out they are. I had no idea such a large encampment could exist so visibly and in a gentrified area such as Canal Saint Martin.
As I approached each section of tents/men, I quickened my pace, clutched my handbag, to get past them. It made me wonder, why do you feel threatened by these refugees? Part of the answer is I did not know for certain they were refugees. And I think that a long row of men, of any race/status is threatening. Except for frat boys or guys at a American football game.
While our walk was not as scenic as we expected, it yielded information on one of the many issues Paris deals with.
Purchase produce at Marche d’Aligre for tonight’s dinner: Check
Visit Notre Dame: Check
Obligatory ice-cream stop at Bertillon: Check
Attempt to go to Centre Pompidou to see the Beat exhibit , and find that it is closed on Tuesdays: Check
Go to the AccorArena for medical check: Check
Try and get a decent night’s sleep: Uhhhhh…
After I was approached by a Paralympian monoskier about getting into ski racing, I started to look more into how to get the ball rolling on this and see how far I can take it. Once I saw the cost of all the camps, the travel expenses to camps and competitions and, of course, the time it might take to train, I wondered how on earth can a person with his/her eyes set on making the U.S. Paralympic Team (Winter or otherwise) manage to support themself??
First off, Paralympians are probably not being bombarded with sponsorship offers. Secondly, I don’t see many Paralympians doing manual labour jobs for companies like UPS and Home Depot; which I am guessing pay Olympians minimum wage and don’t mind if they have to take a good chunk of time off for training, events etc.
This is something I am struggling to reconcile. For example, could it come to having to make the choice between pursuing this Paralympic goal or, say, buying a house? If anyone has any ideas or knowledge about this, please let me know!